My New Love, Box! ......and a chunk of rants.

Hmmm my Valentine's was spent with an object. A box. Oh I'm making it sound so sad when I'm actually CRAZY OVER A BOX!!! We had a delivery on Monday, some Ikea stuffs for one of our projects so the guys assembled and left the huge box in the office.

Box beside the entrance *_* I has evil thoughts

We played with it of course, before sending it to the recycle bin *o* It's so big and comfy~

Johnny for sale

I want to be adopted!

Recently splurged on this cuz my temper is flying sky high into the heavens =_=

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incoming rant ahead

For those who don't know, I've officially resigned from Comic Fiesta. Some dick decided to pull a 'listen-to-what-I-have-to-say-first-and-let-me-finish-then-oh-you-were-saying?' THE FUCK. It's been ages since I've felt THIS pissed and I still feel just as pissed as I was even though this happened more than 24 hours ago.

Well guess what, the reason I quit CF is because of me and nothing but me! I shall use this as an official reason just so that no one bothers to reason with me and apparently it's the only reason that HE will side me for it. Yeap it's me and not that anyone else's problem. I'm just the problematic bitch and everyone is perfect and dandy~ Now the whole world is satisfied and at peace YAY!

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*spits to the floor*

Yes indeed it's ME. Because I have a problem with the latest structure and people fitted in it. Because I can forsee shit happening and I don't wanna be a part it. Because I believe that nothing is going to change. But nooooooo people are telling me I'm not giving it a chance and telling me its childish to leave right after AGM.

If I leave before AGM, I won't know who's the new comm of 2011.

When I left right after AGM, I am called childish.

If I leave halfway, people will tell me it's not right to leave halfway and stick through till the event is over then leave which will be TOO LATE by then.

So tell me, when the FUCK is the right time to leave.

It's like when you go for a job interview and got accepted, it comes down to signing the employment letter and get chained. You start to notice that the environment is not how you thought it was, you might not be comfortable with the T&C in the letter or you think that you might not be able to handle the job responsibilities and maybe other reasons that make you not sign the letter. Well, SAME FUCKING THING. SO HOW DOES THIS MAKE ME CHILDISH?! It's not as though I left my job hanging unlike some idiots nor does it require me to find a successor so what the fuck is the big deal.

Well I regretted saying anything. I should've just kept my bloody mouth shut unless I have something good to say about anything cuz that's the only thing people want to hear. God I should've just said I wanna leave CF for personal reasons, period. *goes regret in the pit of despair*

Grumpy Pot When It's Close To The Hols.

RAWRRRRRRR

I've been feeling so grumpy this whole week!!! Lately I've been so forgetful at work which is probably why I'm horribly grumpy. CF is drawing near and I've so many things to do that CF has become my late night part-time job, and this has nothing to do with my costume yet jeez. Juggling my thoughts between CF and work during my work hours has made me quite forgetful I guess. Somehow I have a feeling that my boss is quite frustrated since we're like his right hand men and yet I'm forgetting stuff. I look forward for my bonus end of the year so that I'll be able to pay for my tires and be debt free in 2011!

I'm also suppose to have 3 packages coming in this week and 1 package next week but they're all being pushed backward I wonder why! #^$#^#@$#@^$ I got a collection note on one of my packages grrr which means I can't see my lovely buys till Saturday.

Last week I went for my facial to clear my blackheads. The very next day a few oil seeds surfaced up and 2-3 tiny pimples started popping up. I don't know whether to take this is a good sign or not but I've applied the cider mask and it's under control for now...

*turns into The Hulk and goes tearing things apart*

Remakes and Touch & Go Fuck Ups

Today I woke up at 2pm! ^o^V and decided I should try my luck popping by Dexon to get my trimmings and lace. Gave a quick call to the place and thankfully they were open for a full day! I thought I could top up my Touch & Go at the same time alas, they decided to screw with me.

Most of the public transportation is encouraging the use of Touch & Go by having the lanes and machines specially allocated for Touch & Go users but the company made it so bloody fucking inconvenient to top up the bloody card! I've been having this problem since 4 years ago and I still see no improvement whatsoever! I knew I was going to pass by a few places with Touch & Go top up machines which was why part of my agenda going out was to top up the value.

I reached the Pandan Jaya LRT station hoping to top up and then swipe it to take the train but I saw the top up machines still in it's wrapper (just as it is MONTHS ago)... Fine, I thought since there's still Plaza Rakyat LRT Station where I was heading but AGAIN both the machines were still in their bloody wrappers. I calmed down and told myself I could still walk to Pasar Seni LRT station to top up since it was a short walking distance from Dexon. Well, the machines weren't in their wrappers this time but all THREE of them had 2 words on the screen

TIADA SERVIS

How bloody fucking long does it take to get those fucking machines working?!?!?!?!? It's not as though the machine will have to provide change! Insert card, insert money and whala your Touch & Go is ready to be used! As I head back to Plaza Rakyat, I thought I could top up at the Maybank and just pay the extra 50 cents service charge. Turns out all the ATM's there were the old versions so there was no top up Touch & Go services! #%@%$#%$#^ Omg and I was even more pissed because it was mentioned at the ATM cubicle that it has ouch & Go top up services! Gods now I feel like bombing the Touch & Go building! They don't even have top up services at most of the tols which forced me to go through all this useless trouble! And I came back with nothing! *huffs* Bah end rant, on topics of by shopping today.

What I wanted to remake

Looks almost the same rite? =D
Cotton Satin - RM13.05
Bias Tape - RM1.40
Lace - RM2.40
Gold tingamagics - RM3.60

WIll probably rush to tailor 101 to see whether this can be done in time =( I hate hate hate rushing for shoots T_T. My Saturday and Sunday will be so packed =( especially since BeautyExpo is around the corner.

I Let Off Some Steam

This year, there shall be NO COSPLAY COMPETITION! Instead, we have prepared some special awards to boost cosplayers fame level above 9000!

Best Snob
Best Elitist (Group/Solo Category)
Best SYOK SENDIRI Cosplayer
Best Bling
Best EPIC PHAIL Cosplay Group Debut
Award for the Most LED Lights
Award for the Thickest Makeup (yes we WILL measure)
Best Almost-Haram-But-Not-Haram-Sexy Outfit aka Best Ban-Worthy-But-Not-Yet-There Costume
Best Fingernail Deco

AND MANY MORE TO COME!!

Stay tuned (that means TO WAIT fyi, cuz we comm are elitists that enjoy using big words just to mindfuck forumers) for more details on how you can qualify for any of these awards.

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Oops, did I hurt your feelings~~~~? Too bad if you can't take a joke.

So You Think You're Being Abused

After the latest stunt made by the cosplayers of today, I finally decided to make a rage post. It's been quite some time a bunch of cosplayers started making noise about how they're been abused and used for commercialism purposes. Things got worse when Cosplay for Fun, We Cosplay to Express Not to Impress and Cosplay Republic came up. It's like the biggest gathering of hypocrites, attention whores and fame suckers.

These people who so called go by the principle that cosplay is for fun are the same people that participate in competitions organized by companies to attract crowd. They compete and gasak the prize then proceed to update their FaceBook status 'OMG WE COSPLAYERS HAVE BEEN ABUSED'. See where I'm going? I don't think you people even understand what is ABUSE. Wanna know what is abuse? Compare yourself to a circus monkey =_=.

Then comes the era of cosplayers going against cosplay for commercialism *laughs*. It started pretty much thanks to NIPS and the stupdity of cosplayers. Already their Facebook event page looks as fishy as it is and looking at how they're marketing the event itself, you could tell it's a pretty big thing but noooooooooo, cosplayers being shitty airheads decided to join since greed clouds their eyes and all of their attention was on the prize (wow it rhymes!). After the first round, contestant comes back and updates their status and flame on FB about how they're being abused for commercialism. Well, too bad for you minorities who couldn't see it coming from a mile away.

So if anyone is to be blamed for all the bloody mess it's YOU BLOODY GREEDY COSPLAYERS. Companies have been generous enough to offer a incentive or good prizes for cosplayers and if you don't think it's good enough then don't fucking join in the first place.Yet these ungrateful hypocrites go compete, bag the prize and then go bitch. Just because it's a little difficult to get the prize money, cosplayers go bitch that they're being abused. Well you know what? Money doesn't come easy and you have to earn it. If it's so difficult for you to spend a few days to compete for some prize money, equivalent to 2-3 months of allowance then don't join!

After the commercialism era, next comes to the era whereby cosplayers only swear to attend events that are organized by non-profit organizations. Well I have no problem with that but that doesn't mean you can start wearing character wigs, put a wardrobe together and hop around. It's just plain degrading to the character and I feel sad just seeing it. If you pride yourself as a cosplayer, fucking make a complete one for gods sake.

Cosplayers today just wanted to be treated like royalty! =_= Demanding for a buffet table, complaining how it's too difficult to go up to the 14th floor and being harassed by the public every 5 steps they take. Well guess what? Comic Fiesta's objective has bloody nothing to do with protecting the welfare of cosplayers. We're not SPCA - Society of Prevention of Cosplay Asshattery (Thank you Ezel~ XD). Go make your own. At this rate, the quality of cosplay in Malaysia is going down, beating Singapore's

Yay Malaysia Boleh~ *snarls*

(sigh I'm finding it so hard to construct my sentences and facts properly)

Ken's Ghey Vid

Unmotivated, lazy and bored pretty much describes how I'm feeling right now. So unhappy about so many things that I wanna sit at a corner and cry. Thank gods for my work ~_~;; not that work keeps me busy but I enjoy working and enjoy staying at office. I suspect I'm easily pissed lately cuz I owe my parents RM1.5k for the car and house expenditures so I'm starving myself to pay the bill =__=;; Parents say I can pay them in installments but I hate paying installments. Returning the money for the BlackBerry was so difficult itself (3 months installments *screams*) I can't imagine having another long debt on my list.... plus I'm going to Singapore next month so I want some spending money instead of another month of starving.

Why I starve? Cuz I'm scared of being short on money, so I never do spend on things until my next salary comes in then only I'll start using the money from my current salary. This month, my expenditures are extra heavy thanks to so many birthdays ;__; so I've used my food money for pressies and expensive expensive food XD;;

So.. hungry *dies* Thank gods I still have the weight drink. Can use it to suppress my hunger pangs XD;;

PS: The title of the entry has no link to the blogpost whatsoever XD;; I was watching Jay Sean's Down PV and it just looked absolutely ghey.

Weekend Full Of Awesomeness and Disaster

Nyau~~~~~

Saturday was absolutely wonderful =D Pictures on Facebook tells it all X3 and suddenly I find another cosplay plan on my lap x_X.

Sunday however... *groans* I went so ballistic over some fucker. The only time I've felt that pissed was with my parents. This dolt however is a damn hypocrite and self-centered person. Putting his own personal issues on the table and telling us not to get OUR own personal issues involved. Its bad enough he thinks the meeting is under control when HE'S chairing it, he voices his opinions and then tells us to take the topic online. WHY?! All so that he can end the fucking meeting early and get home.

When it's his fucking mistake, he blames the comm as a whole 'It is our fault and I think we can learn something from this bla bla bla' but when someone else makes a mistake oh boy the amount of arrows that can come out of that fuckwit. Every time people drill sense to him, he gets defensive. Well if talking won't get through his thick skull, I'm just gonna have to leave a deeper impression.

Fuckwits, when idiocy is just not enough.

So Much For A Good Morning

I wanted to blog about my weekend but.... my morning got ruined by an asshole =(. I was driving beside a bicycle and some asshole on a motorbike thinks he's small enough to squeeze in between me and the bike. I ended up with a gash on my car and the asshole just smiled, waved at me and drove away. FML

For my birthday this year.. I request donations to repair my car =.=;; There's 4 dents on that side... one of them has gone rusty.

On to other matters...

Parking my brother's car

The other day I had to park my brother's manual car outside since there's not enough parking space in our condo. So with my manual theory from 5 years ago and the last manual car I touched was 5 years ago (ok I tried driving Jared's car a couple of months ago and I sucked but at least the car didn't die XD;;), I went to park his car. After spending an insane amount of time, I parked his car beautifully! It was a failed moment yet I've never felt so proud of myself D8. Wonder why it was fail?

1. Looked high and low for the air con switch


2. Then I looked high and low for the button to pull the window down


3. Then comes to adjusting my seat, which totally failed cuz I still couldn't press down fully onto the cluth so when I was driving, I had to balance my body on the chair and balance my feet on the clutch OTL


4. The car died more than 6 times cuz my short feet had problems with the clutch D:

Saturday Madness

I squashed all my plans into Saturday so that I'll have a free day on Sunday. The result was chaos cuz I stuffed too many >< Originally the plan was:

1. Jogging


2. Settle YM shit


3. Go to Chinese funeral


4. Go to Malay wedding


5. Collect book from KLCC


6. Attend Origins Earth Day


7. Visit product fair at PJU 1

I didn't realize it was a double wedding lol. Both sons got married at the same time.

Stuff I got from KLCC and Pavilion =D Book from Jonathan, bought pencil sharpener from Watsons and Origins samples from their event at pavilion. They were giving out like hot cakes =D

Saturday was also a fail day since I didn't manage to jog or visit the product fair TwT. Hope tonite will be great, I've got goodies to haul back~

In Despairrrrrr

I've hit rock bottom a few days ago which half explains my lack of updates. It's funny how could a dream could make me feel so depressed. That along with the stress of looking for my first job. The fear of not being able to perform up to expectations. Looking at all the responsibilities that comes with the job just lowers down my confidence. I've learned nothing, zero from my degree programme >_> horrible waste of my time.

Thinking about all that just made me stop pursuing for freebies or reading up on the beauty blogs. Gods I hope this phase passes...

Life and Other

Starting my post with a cat provides me with inner peace *gets smacked*. That's what I need for the weekend =( Will have to work this Saturday but thank god my manager is understanding enough to let me off the weekends for the month of November. I really enjoy work but after giving out the wrong drinks to a few people, having the jugs topple on me and breaking a plate in a span of 2 days, yes my mood went down the drain for the rest of the week.

Social Life
Hurrrr someone dissed me about not keeping in contact with him for months and then shoved a survey up his nose XD;; I admit I haven't made any attempts to keep my social life on MSN active. With the amount of events, work and assignments I attend to, I hardly talk to people on MSN. I talk to an average of.... 4 people out of the 300 contacts on my list. Sad me yeah but I'd really like a conversation without it dying after 15 minutes so if I'm not confident enough to keep the convo going, I'll normally wont chat D8 so hit me.

Events
Yesh I've been attending events lately. The perks of signing up for random crap you don't remember doing haha. The downside is you'll have to endure them trying to sell you their packages and some of them really do hard selling and one of them is Marie France Bodyline >_> I was cornered and thrown into a cell then the consultant shoved me with their Open House package. Next week attending Dermalogica's launch of their new range which is catered to the younger people~ aged 15-25.

Uni Related JackShit
To say my uni life is so-so would be an understatement of the century... The day I say that would be the day I hack myself to death. My advisor is really being a pain as I have a few chapters with him which hasn't been approved. I have never been so grateful to purchase some book which I thought would be useless. Some journalist linked my area of research to the agenda-setting theory which is explained in the book, hooray~ The place is just full of simpletons and two-faced people. I guess I can stand two-faced people but the other... *facepalms* I think some of you guys have seen how much they lack...

Love Life
This is for Sylvene lol. I feel like we're drifting apart with our schedules and his marriage to his boss. As much as I'd like to be obviously upset, it won't solve anything so... meh. Bertahanlah aku.

And I ban you from dating me wearing this shirt. It's not a matter of whether I'm embarrassed or not. The shirt is just unfit to be worn out >_>

Still Walking Down The Road of Rotten Luck

As if my luck isn't bad enough, today I couldn't get my car to start D: so my plans to head to the DBKL clinic before college was screwed. Hope the mechanic will arrive in time tomorrow since I have to get to the clinic urgently before my supervisor skins me alive for delaying this. 

There's lots of things I wanna blog about but I can't extract the pictures out of my camera and phone TwT. Gonna highlight here just for my reference:

• TheHAYAN @ Jaya One


• BTRC BB


• NekoNekoLand


• Freebie haul (as usual)

I hate when people deal with things without thinking. Another month or so of torture and it'll be over, I just have to suffer until then. freebies shall keep me alive and happy D8.... I hope.

Fashion rants! Been ages I posted something cute up.

Chevron Tunic Dress from DoubleWoot. Lovely motives and the patterns on this purple dress looks so beautiful <3 Only thing stopping me from buying is the dress length. I'd really hate to chop the length of such a pretty dress.

Ed hardy bikinis me like 8D. I started liking stuff from Ed Hardy after I saw some blog selling their sunnies. Bikini from Bikini Republic. Around RM60-80. 

Rotten Luck

*huffs* It's one of those days where everything just fucks up. This is one of the unluckiest days of the year =_=;; Started off with the DBKL clinic being an ass by refusing to reprint my Typhoid jab card. Don't know what shitty info they told my mum cuz seemingly she spoke with one of them and they said it can be reprinted for RM1. The trip wasted since it I had to make a detour from my journey to PJ =.= then the usual epic jam on the federal that never cease to end. The roads are jammed 24/7 =A=.

Then previously last night, my computer decided that it's a great time to go ZAP and restart! Teri said it might be overheated which I suspect the same =( I'm glad the laptop served me for 3 years+ with no problems *hugs her lappie* please be okay ;w;

After my consultation with Mr. Raduan, drove to SS2 to have lunch with King and exchanged movies and doramas. Now at least I have a few movies to catch up to. Left the place early since thought I'd pay Jared a visit and that's where the next 2 disasters happened D8. My specs went missing, either crushed by a car or stolen by the workers at Hailam Kopitiam and I banged my car against some rat ass double parked car so I did what every existing good-natured citizen would do...

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RUN! DRIVE AWAY! DON'T LOOK BACK!

Okay no I didn't exactly run away, there was just no place to stop the car to check the damage cuz the whole stretch of road is double parked by idiots so I stopped at the next corner and got down to see. Thankfully not a scratch but now I'm as blind as a bat when driving and gonna have to fight for the PC with my brother =w=;; I did look at my rear mirror and saw the guy coming out to check the damage on his car @w@.

Of course my entire day wasn't made entirely out of crap. I do appreciate all the blessings that happened... or ALL THE FREEBIES I GOT 8D. Dropped by some opening of a shop selling beauty products in Jaya One. The shop is managed by an old man and his son mostly selling Korean cosmetics and skin care products. Currently, walk-in customers will received a flyer which entitles you to redeem a free collagen face mask (NP: RM3.90). They have quite a wide variety of masks catered to women of all ages and 1 mask particularly for the men >D.

Masks I purchased. The store had a promotion, buy 1 free 1 so bought 4 masks all together + 1 free mask from the flyer redemption. The mens mask is missing since I gave it to Jared.

Got an extra BB cream sample from him =D and yes the shop's name is The Hayan =)

Wahaha the jewel of the day. There's a print on one of the first few pages of MYC magazine. Flash the print and receive a 3pc starter kit XD. The box looks like a pack of green tea @A@

In the box, under all the pamphlets, wrapped in fragile paper lies these cute 3 bottles~ The lotion, mask and pore serum 8D. Dang I have yet to start using my Laneige pore kit which was redeemed in April/May.

A Visit To Chic Pop

Somehow it was a stroke of luck that I didn't attend the Hennessy Artistry since I heard it was jam packed.

Hur, I woke up at the crack of dawn... ok just kidding, it was only at 8am. The reason? to perform my weekly chore of cleaning my room and rush out to the Chic Pop bazaar at Zouk, KL. Surprisingly I arrived TOO early, public transportation gets too efficient at times XD;; Signed up at the entrance booth, received some samples and rushed inside for a quick look. Lecka-lecka was at the entrance but there was no ice-cream at their booth =w=;; guess I was too early.

Za and The Body Shop samples =D

I'm just itching to rant about the behavior of the vendors. They seriously need to be educated on basic customer service. Have they been communicating through emails too often till they've forgotten how to serve customers face to face? Normally when a customer approaches and browses through the shop or booth in this case, the salesperson either:

a) Looks at you and smile
b) Say hi
c) Ask 'What are you looking for?' or
d) 'How can I help you?'

Well most of them picked the option d) Ignore or e) Talk to partner. If it's just one or two I can just let it slide and curse silently but I'm talking about EVERY. SINGLE. BOOTH that I visited =.= and I'm not even including the ones who were busy setting up. So it didn't take me long to cover the bazaar. The lighting was just too dim to browse for clothes. In a way, I'm lucky enough to be saving money I guess.

Even though I said, I wouldn't be able to attend the meeting, I was the first to be there. *facepalms* Oh hail efficient public transportation which only works on Sunday mornings XD;;

Jared in my sunnies.

Sausage fest at TMNK's new house was awesome =D. Been ages since I've attended outings like this :3

Unhappy Cat Is Unhappy >(

I went for the Maybelline Lipstick Exchange Programme and guess what? Apparently, I'm suppose to bring a newspaper clipping from The Star which was NOT stated in the Watsons booklet as stated here. Call me anal just cuz I can't get a freebie but honestly I am not happy wasting my time there to find out I'm suppose to bring a clipping that was not mentioned in the booklet. I'm writing a complaint letter as I'm typing this >( *is very very upset*

Then after my dentist appointment, I dropped by 1Utama to collect my EL and Inuovi sample at Parkson. EL samples were finished but that's okay since I think I'm too young to experiment and test their Advanced Night Repair serum anyway, just wanted to get it for fun XD;;.

The Inuovi counter.... was EMPTY at 11.46am =_=. Given that the place was empty, but I'd expect all sales assistants for cosmetic counters to be there and prepped by 11.30 >( and honestly that timing is horribly late enough in my books. Instead of glaring at the Parkson ambassador rep and demanding why are the SA's not around yet (yes a few, almost half of the counters have no SA's), I left the place telling myself no worries since I can collect the rest of the stuff in Sungei Wang.

Ah, Sungei Wang...... a horrible yet awesome experience. I decided to sit through the karaoke competition and most of us were making faces throughout the competition XD. Most of them were horrified faces and some cried bloody tears haha. Some really sang out of tune, no voice control at all and some were just purely tone deaf D: and they continued to sing right through the end. My personal favorite was the girl who sang Lacrimosa, she definitely did an awesome job and the one who sang Colors is an embarassment to mankind =_=

Dropped by Metrojaya this time to collect my stuff. AGAIN, the counters are EMPTY. 90% of the counters have no bloody SA's! and it was 7pm. It's either the cursed Ramadhan month but still, can't they go in bloody shifts?! By the end of the week, I'm cursing the Ramadhan month to hell. Now for some pampering therapy since I bought my new face mask equipment set.

P.S: Jared pls redeem the stuff for meee TT__TT

After 14 Weeks..

The bubble bursts!

Initially the rant was so long until it overshot 600 words then I decided to just put a summary... In short, this bitch who dared to tell me that I'm high and mighty and worse than her has pissed the whole group as she has been very passive throughout the whole 14 weeks. Whenever we consulted a lecturer, she shows no sign of participation and continues FB-ing and MSN-ing right in front of us. Whenever we gave her tasks, she comes back (no, we actually have to ask for it..) performing under our expectations. She was asked to read up on 3 case laws, she only read one by the end of the week.

Jesus Christ on a pogo stick! (I've always wanted to say that after Gwen did haha) I'm amazed people like this are still here =A=. My life is a living nightmare thanks to that bitch and I hate to imagine how Kel and Kong are coping. Our group of 4 is producing an output of 3 instead D= which is just bad BAD BAD! With assignments like Web Page Design and 3D, we need all the help we could get and what has she done so far?! Close to nothing and she dare to make herself look like the victim. I wanna sacrifice my grades just to slap her and watch her cry!!!

Thank god we're at the last hurdle =.=

If Given The Chance, The Past, Present and Future

Now before you start your yapping on how I should look forward and focus on what I'm doing now, here's a good piece of advice before commenting: stuff it. I'm bloody tired of the way some people are speaking to me in such a damn rude and spiteful manner. You people might now know who you are but I bloody hope you watch your words before you speak next time.

This is just an entry to muse over my situation. I don't need you telling me 'You're in Advertising now, just focus do your best. You can't take back lost time' cuz I bloody hell know.

4 years ago right after SPM, being the stupid girl I was, I got shoved by my parents to pick the cheapskate UTAR to pursue Advertising all because I wasn't set on what I wish to major. It was either that or a 6 year government training on English. Being the KL addicted girl I was (and still am) back then, the though of 6 years away from KL was just horrifying so I picked the first choice.

Given the chance to make my own choice, I would've picked PR but heck I'm not surprised if they refute with silly answers. Playing the alpha in the house, I'm not surprised if my choice for PR was denied without hesitation during that time. Now looking at my grades, I'm horribly afraid to say that there's a high possibility I won't do well this semester. I do admit I haven't been performing the best and designing subject covers half of the course. What's worse is that my group mates are horribly lazy people who make absolutely or close to zero effort. I foresee my 3D Animation subject will have a very poor grade based on my group's progress and my lecturer's expectations.

Amazing how one miserable subject can bring me so low. My only hope is to save my grades to a 2.5 to 2.7 CGPA and pray hard, the event management industry won't give a damn to my grades (fat chance!) or at least interview me before reviewing my grades XD;;

Geez, I can't even rant properly....

Unwanted Visitors In The Early Wee Hours

Some group leader we're having *snorts* Here's how the work was divided.
K (L) - Overseeing work, WPD (written), Comm Law
EM - Comm Law
J - WPD (written), Comm Law, Animation
ZS - Animation, WPD, Comm Law

Is it me or do I see the shitty work not distributed evenly. It saddens me that 2 of my group members (1 of the particularly) gives no shit to learn the software required for the 2 subjects. The work was pretty much auto-dumped to the other 2 because 'they dunno how to use the software'.

So much jack shit.... which brings me to rage about a user who posted a useless, derogatory comment on such a beautiful album in my FB. The post was unnecessary and it's something that you could bring on MSN instead of leaving that unpleasant mark on FB. It's like noobs chatting on the CF forum when chatting on MSN could've been much easier. Difference is, I get to wipe out the comment. I was cheesed off and when I told him, that fucking chicken said 'oh you sound mad, talk to you later'. Duh I'm mad but is evading the situation gonna help?! I would've just been happy with a 'I'm sorry' and he can continue to ignore my pissy self for the rest of the day. The nerve =_=

Had a really bad start for today. First woke up late and had a roach encounter in the bathroom when I went to wash up. I was half laughing and crying when I knocked on the room of my parents' door =( It's sad how scared am I of a roach. Yes I was knocking on their room, pleading my dad to smack the roach at 6.30 in the morning =(. I think my mum refuses to admit that we have a roach problem. 6-7 roaches in the house in the past 2-3 months.

They probably don't realize but I remember every single roach that made any public appearance in the house. It's a lot compared to the time we were staying in those bandaraya flats. Roaches do appear but only 3-4 a year unless the workers pop by the neighborhood and spray the mosquito insecticide but hell I think you get where I'm going now >w<. Bandaraya flats is one of the dirtiest and smelliest areas to live in and we only get 3-4 roaches a year but my current house which is vaccumed, mopped and dusted weekly is getting what I consider very frequent visits from those unwanted guests. I'm very scared =( There's never been a day when I don't hope for a roach on my floor/bed when I wake up and switch on the lights.

I saw a very pretty cat 8D;;

It has the most beautiful sad looking face @@;;

After class, I went shopping with Sylvene at KLCC. Found some really nice deals in Isetan, can't say the same for Parkson. Then we went to the boutiques like Topshop, MNG and Zara to continue our hunting.

Glow-in-the-dark pantsu! =D Most interesting item for the day >3<

Verdict: I didn't buy anything woohoo~ Good me XP

There's Just No Maturity Left

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After the 'civil debate' I had with one of my other classmates, I decided to say sorry to A. The very next day (today morning) I woke up and typed my apology for not informing that I was gonna be absent from the presentation. I also said that I'm not sorry for backstabbing her.

It's how she perceives and handles the matter by herself. There's a very fine fucking line between backstabbing and complaining about a person =_=

Guess what she replied?

You are obviously insincere and unsatisfied bout having to apologize. Let's just cut the act and save the drama. You don step on my tail, I won't step on yours. We only communicate when needed. Other than that, lets not bother.

No shit, fucktard it's obviously insincere cuz my mother woke me up in the morning and forced me to sms the message otherwise she won't leave and let me sleep in peace. Grow up la stupid woman. Insincere would just be one fucking word in that text which is 'sorry'. Insincere would mean I won't fucking care to rationalize and talk to Kelvin about my actions towards you both. The irony of it all is we DO only communicate when needed in the first place. Really, I'm rolling around laughing my ass right now.

Insincere??? INSINCERE??? Please la, I'm the one who's taking the first step of admitting my faults and she hasn't even admitted hers. Only thing she's been doing is to call me names and keeping her nose up in the air playing hard to get. She still has yet to apologize for not informing me of her works progress and has been hitting on my faults (in which I have already admitted). Here I am with a super long text apology and she only turned her face away.

My reply..

If I'm not sincere, I wouldn't have had that very long discussion with Kelvin and made amends with WMun in his presence. It's only you left. I'm already here apologizing for not playing my role as a team member and if that's not called sincere then so be it. It's up to you if you wanna play hard to get but I know I've already said the words that are difficult to say and I'm already making the first step here which is to apologize the first thing I woke up.

Grow up la you stupid child. Even children can make up after one simple word, why can't you.

Why such childishness can occur in a damn university is beyond my understanding.

Stupid People With Horrible Work Ethics

Sounds familiar?

Nah I'm talking about a she this time. I was grouped together with A and B for a small presentation. None of us remembered until I informed them on the day before the presentation. A gave an excuse that she shifted house and doesn't have online access so I told her to fnd a way to go online and give me a rough time. This all happened in the afternoon. 8pm she sms-ed saying she's on9. Gosh she could've told me to come online at night instead of having me on my toes for 8 bloody hours.

Then came the time to do the assignment. She barely replied me and went poof offline all of a sudden. Here am I alone and assignment is due by 5am (the time i have to wake up) so I started doing the assignment. At 2am, B msged me about the assignment. Again, I am pissed cuz it's 3 hours before I print the bloody thing and now only she asks me.
Me: What if I say I didn't do anything at all....
B: hahaha I believe in you la

...ridiculous poor answer and I was pissed at both of their attitudes so I ranted to her about A (big mistake here) then let her summarize a few points and elaborate on a few more then went for the 1 hour nap. Morning, I made the decision to ffk the presentation cuz I was sick and tired of this and the last thing I wanna do is look at their faces.

Afternoon, the fire came. Note these all happened in messages.

A: If you have a problem say it to my face. Don't backstab me bla bla bla
Me: I was merely finding a way to vent my frustration. I asked you to come on9, you could've at least given me a rough time or even TELL ME you'll come online. You came online then you disappeared without even sms-ing me or calling me to follow-up on the assignment

Well in short she kept calling me names and said I'm no better than her (honestly I feel like I'm arguing with a school kid), I justified saying at least I handed the work instead of a blank piece of paper. Me ffk-ing the presentation was intentional and I'm half-satisfied that's they're pissed. Now they know how pissed I feel =_=. Well she wants to leave the argument hanging, let the little kid be. It's amusing how she's losing her marbles with each sms.

The paling pwned statement is when she sms-ed me saying she already submitted hers instead and told me off that I wasn't the only one doing it. Genius, if she had said that in the very first place on the night she went suddenly poof, none of this would've happened. No bloody fucking sense to inform people.

Bitch.

I was super pissed but now I'm highly amused and find her angry smses humorous. Now I gotta practice my puppy eyes on the lecturer saying it there was internal conflict and this was all due to poor communication and teamwork.

Honestly I do admit some of this is my fault but heck worth it. Some couldn't stand her and have ranted about her for the past 3 years. So happens I ranted to the wrong person. She made such a big hoo haa as though she recently knew ppl DO backstab her =.=; Hello~ it's college! Everyone just backstabs!

I didn't bother confronting her yet since I still wasn't calm in the morning and when I'm not calm, I lose my sense of reasoning and rationale. So really... there's no point confronting if I'm pissed. Too bad she found out earlier =D

After War

With 3 people backstabbing me back, I approached one of them who isn't in the fire and we had a civil debate. I'm still disagreeing on the fact that I have to mother group mates and ask them if they can undertsand my work. For gods sake we're all university students in our adulthood, if anything, THEY should be voicing their concerns for not understanding anything. No bloody teacher gonna ask you if you understand their teachings, if they did, it's typical for the student to shuddup and ask during the final moments.

There's no point going hoo haa at people backstabbing you. It happens and it ain't going away. You just gotta be matured and handle it yourself. Best method, ignore unless the person is clearly showing it. Other than that, as long as they're civil, all's good. Backstabbing just happens if people are frustrated and need to vent =.=

Overall the whole team is at fault. We had poor communication, no discussion and last minute crap. No elected team leader to oversee progress on the work.

Apologies exchanged and accepted.

Case Closed. Damn I feel so grown up.

What's Life For?

A holiday aka vacation is a time to relax your mind and just laze around but what my parents had in mind of a holiday seems different... Just a little cheesed at my parents for grilling me about coming back late and stuff. The first time I went for a late night movie, I came back at 4am, next one I came back at 12am.

I've been setting my time to come back as early as possible in which I believe coming back by midnight is quite a sensible curfew time honestly. They're seemingly so worried about me being a victim of crime and telling me to look at the crime statistics. Truthfully speaking.... statistics is just bullshit to me. Those are just crimes reported. What about including those that are not reported and the amount of missing people. Those missing people could've been murdered in their very own homes and their bodies are just dumped somewhere deep in the jungle. Crime is just everywhere and it can even happen right at home. It's just the matter of being cautious of your surroundings and your luck alltogether.

I thought with me working my ass off and paying for my own stuff for the whole holidays, I would at least earn a bit of freedom.

Guess not.